Emotional Dump
*Warning: Sappy drivel ahead*
There was a time, a few years ago, that I felt very content and emotionally satisfied as a person. I know why and how - but since then, I guess in a different phase of my life, I've changed. Even then, I can remember back to that time - and almost actually percieve the feelings I had then. Its like an ephemereal perception - a fleeting mix of senses that seem to hover tantalisingly just out of mental reach. Occasionally, they become more substantial, just for a little while. It might be triggered by the most obscure things - a certain smell, the wind blowing against your face in a certain way... a particular song. Given the right mood, sometimes I can actually feel as if I was back in that timeframe, enjoying the emotions and perceptions I felt then. And like *that*, its gone again.
Perhaps I'm living in the past. I know though, that one day... something will change in my life - and I want to be able to re-evoke all these things - drawing on the experience and understanding of the past. For the time being, that part of me, is dormant - occasionally coming back as a little reminder that they still exist.
*And now, we return you to your regular programming...*
There was a time, a few years ago, that I felt very content and emotionally satisfied as a person. I know why and how - but since then, I guess in a different phase of my life, I've changed. Even then, I can remember back to that time - and almost actually percieve the feelings I had then. Its like an ephemereal perception - a fleeting mix of senses that seem to hover tantalisingly just out of mental reach. Occasionally, they become more substantial, just for a little while. It might be triggered by the most obscure things - a certain smell, the wind blowing against your face in a certain way... a particular song. Given the right mood, sometimes I can actually feel as if I was back in that timeframe, enjoying the emotions and perceptions I felt then. And like *that*, its gone again.
Perhaps I'm living in the past. I know though, that one day... something will change in my life - and I want to be able to re-evoke all these things - drawing on the experience and understanding of the past. For the time being, that part of me, is dormant - occasionally coming back as a little reminder that they still exist.
*And now, we return you to your regular programming...*
The emotional rollercoaster that is life needs to be dealt with looking forward. Every day your emotions change and you should be aiming towards a bright future, not holding onto the past (which seems to get brighter the further away you get).